hideous raging inferno!!

how hard is it to find marijuana on this island. for christ sake, i live in staten island, new york, where everybody and their mother's smoke pot. for the past few nights i have called everybody i know who deals, and everybody says they are no good. it puts a whole huge damper on the pot smoking phase i am in right now. what is the point of smoking pot if it takes me 3-7 hours to find it. there is no reason. wait.....i have a reason cause its fucking amazing!!!

(this part goes out to all who read this and have a problem with me smoking pot. if it really bothers you, than ask me to stop. if i really like you, than i will stop.)

yea so i met a cool new friend. her name is gina and she rules all!!! we smoke all the time and laugh. she says things like fancy. she is definitely one of the coolest people i have ever met. she is soo polite, funny and generous. i love hanging out with her.

yea, soo i am having some drama in my life right now on two subjects and i need all the people who read this damn thing to give me advice.

1) i have this friend, who whenever i hear anything or see him i feel like that he has a problem with me.like he doesnt like me. we kinda stopped hanging out recently after a long friendship and i think it caused tension. dont get me wrong, this kid is an awesome kid and his friendship has meant alot to me and it still does. i just want to know if he has a problem with me, so i can see if i can fix it. i dont like tension. its funny cause we both stopped calling each other at the same time. he hangs out with is friends and i hang out with mine. we rarely talk and if we do its awkward and sporadic. any advice?

2) the second deals with a girl who after us not talking for a long time decides to text message me with something makes me believe that we are going to get back together. i text back. this happens for a little bit, then we talk and we tell each other that we will speak the day after. nothing happens, no call, no speaking. weeks pass, than i get another message. everything loks good again. we follow the same process as the first time. i go to visit her at her work place and she wont even look at me, let alone talk to me, and i dont kno why and i need answers.
does she have me wrapped around her finger? where she can play with me?
does she still like me and wants to get back together?
does she dislike me so much that she is playing a game to hurt me?

to me this girl is amazing and angel. the best thing to ever happen to me. so much better than some mistakes i made. she is absolutely amazing to me.

i dont know and i need advice on both subjects. im soo frustrated

its all to frustrating. life is too frustration. hell, life is frustrated